Saw my mother Sat and wrote her a note for the doctors when she goes in for her day surgery on Tuesday. She is so afraid they will hurt her unintentionally when they move her to the operating table due to her pins and lack of ability to move parts (she's let her replaced shoulder freeze up, too after hurting her back.) She's getting this procedure to relieve the fractures in her spine and will be BETTER and in less pain.
I wish I could have a non-invasive procedure to cure mine.
Last night after visiting friends for a birthday I thought I was getting better because my leg went really tingly and slightly painful like it does when your leg starts 'awaking up' after being numb.
So such luck.
I am so discouraged at the moment. I'm feeling better due to the grazing on protein diet (though I'm already tired of having to eat all the time when I start feeling bad) but I want whatever is making my nervous system go haywire to get better (rheumo thinks it's a disk but the neuro hasn't investigated it yet) so this will all go away and I can get my life AND BODY back.
I want to be able to eat at normal times and not have to baby my system with 'treats' to keep my stomach from growling after an hour or the weird sensation that goes across my head from happening, or the illness and dizziness I feel if I have to do a fasting blood test.
I'm tired of yawning ten to twenty minutes after eating.
I want to be able to scratch my leg and not have that action sent shooting tingles down the rest of my leg and across my groin. I want my groin back, for 'those' reasons. That scares me the most.
I still wake up at 5-5:30am no matter how many hours of sleep I've had and most of the time I can't get back to sleep. My head won't stop buzzing then, either.
And my imagination is still pretty much lost.
I'm tired of being thirsty all the time.
I pray all the time.
I pray for my health to return, for my doctors to find a way to help me in a semi-permanent way to relieve the pressure of the supposed bulging disc (that's the rheumo thinks) so this will STOP and my nerves get better, for my appetite to come back to normal, for so many things.
And I pray for all of YOU, my friends, knowing that some of you don't believe the same as me, so I ask that my prayers get to you through your own deity(s).
Thanks: --> to Lia, my sensei, who has inspired me to draw again. I
wouldn't be doing this without your support, Domo Arigato!
--> to Talon, for sending me her fabulous fics, inspiring me with her writing to draw my first
illustration for a story and actually liking what I drew.
--> to Dasia, for her words of encouragement when drawing her original chara.
--> to Joules, a wonderful epic fic writer, for liking my art enough to want to post them with Talon's
and her own stories.
--> to Lutra, the other half of the epic team, for being so supportive.
--> to Jacque' & Becca Raddittzu, we met on eBay as bidder and sellers and now we are face-to-face
friends. You showed us the real DBZ with your fansubs. It's all your fault the house is full of
doujinshi! *LOL*
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